"We are not necessarily doubting that God will do the best for us; we are wondering how painful the best will turn out to be." (CS Lewis)

As I was driving back to Philly today and sort of processing the past two weeks I happened to be listening to a Christian radio station out of the NY/NJ area. I don't remember the song that was on but it was talking about God (shocker that a Christian radio station would have a song about God) and believing in him. Something sort of hit me - it's not that I doubt my belief in God. I know that I believe in him. Sometimes I doubt that he believes in me. Lately I tend to put too much stock into my circumstances and allow them to be the lens through which I view everything, especially God. My circumstances lead me to believe that God can't possibly believe in me. What hit me is - what if he does. What if my current circumstances are a part of the process of God doing the best for me? What if this is just a time of pain? What if I'm in the valley of the shadow of death (or something that feels like it at times) and the quiet waters and green pasture are just up ahead?

"We are not necessarily doubting that God will do the best for us; we are wondering how painful the best will turn out to be." (CS Lewis)

CS Lewis was one insightful guy.

Vacation

Free at last; Thank God almighty I am free at last!

I am now officially on vacation for the next two, count them one...two, weeks. Can you tell I am a bit excited about that fact? No need to answer.

I will be adding a new state to my list of states I've visited. Washington will be added when I head to Seattle on Tuesday. I hope to see the sites, spend time with friends, eat too much, stay up too late and laugh until I cry. Sounds like a great time to me.

I'll end my trip in Phoenix visiting my dad and relaxing by the pool. I will get some much needed rest there along with some much needed time with a dear friend. Since my dad is 'sick' I want to spend some time with him. Bring on the sun. I'm sure I'll also eat too much there too. Is there any other way to spend vacation?

I hope to come home full, not only on good food but also emotionally and spiritually from time with friends and family. It wouldn't hurt to come home tan too.

I Have a Pet Peeve

Okay, so I probably have many. This, however, is the only one I'll share. For now.

I don't know what it is with Philly but so many people smoke. Now you, smoker person, have as much 'right' to smoke as I have to breathe clear air. Seems you, however, are always at an advantage.

My pet peeve is not that people smoke. My pet peeve is people who smoke and walk at the same time. Ah, it's SO annoying. It's one thing to walk outside and a smoker is standing there. I can usually walk away and be fine. However, when you walk and smoke at the same time there is no escape. It doesn't matter if I walk in front of you or behind you (although behind is way worse), I can still smell that disgusting smoke.

All you smokers, would you kindly give us non-smokers a break and stand still when you contaminate your lungs. I'd like to keep my lungs as clean as possible. The urban air is enough of a hazard.